1 post tagged “reflection”

    I have felt incredibly weird since reading and finishing Deathly Hallows.  At first, I was excited, ecstatic, in love, and just wanting to get drunk.  I did, thanks to the help of a couple of Cranberry Vodkas and a bonfire. I wanted to talk to people, anyone about the book and analyze it, discover things I missed out on and just exclaim continuously how "omg, it is over! over! over!" and it being over didn't seem bad, it felt like a relief, it felt amazing, like I had just finished an epic journey. I had no one to talk to though, because no one else around me had finished and those reading the book or wanting to read the book, I could not spoil it for them. So, I drank, randomly brought up things and went in and out of this world and into the Potter world, remembering, smiling.
    Today though, I've felt kind of off. A sadness is lingering over me and yet I still feel happy.  Eight years of my life has been dedicated to this book series and people may think it is weird how much it has effected me, how much I am talking about it but it has been an amazing journey.  And I feel that it ended on a good note, I enjoyed the book.  I understand why some will hate it, but for me... it ended perfectly. I still don't want to discuss the plot, analyze it because I don't want to be a spoiler.  I just wanted to talk about how it made me feel to finish it, after all these years, of the time and energy spent.  I feel that none of it was wasted, I feel happier knowing that I partook in it, but I also feel sad because it is all over and nothing knew can be learned, no more books will be waiting for me.  The questions have been answered.  It is bizarre to me, I think I never really realized that it would one day come to an end, that it had to.
    I feel like crying.  I feel like screaming.  I keep smiling though... All in all, this has been a very positive experience. I just wish my emotions were more in check.  I didn't think I'd react this strongly to finishing a book, that the idea of the series being over, of having finished it is highly emotional for me.  I think I like it though, I feel as if this is the most emotion I've expressed/felt in a long while.  So, kudos to J.K. Rowling for that and to the Harry Potter world at large.  Never have I wished so strongly that it was all real, because that would mean it wouldn't have to necessarily end.
     I hope other Potter fans are feeling the same way I am.